I'm right behind you Tipstaff, you don't need to feel guilty in my opinion. I'm on the opposite side to you in that I'm now on my own, but I am very careful not to be needy and hang onto the coat tails of friends who have been, and still are, generous enough to support me in my hour of need as they say. There is nothing more guaranteed to lose friends than for you to make them to feel guilty about your predicament. When you find yourself on your own for whatever reason , you have to reach out for new frontiers as well as those enjoyed in the past. Sometimes it's not easy, but if you try hard enough you can recover from the dip many of us find ourselves in due to events.