I was Smiley5 but can't remember my password so created a new one.
I'm so sorry to read about your loss. It DOES get easier. It's hard to say when it will feel easier as I think it depends on each person but I found that when I'd been through all the firsts (first birthday, first Christmas etc) things were easier but it still took a few years for it even then to feel anything but sad. I got married two and a half years after losing my mum and I felt like that was a turning point. We've just had our first child and, although I miss her, I also feel like I'm a different person, better for having her as my mum, but it was a turning point. I try to make her proud everyday.
For me, talking about her helped lots. It does get less painful and its hard to focus on good memories especially when you lose someone suddenly and unexpectedly. My dad still relives the day over and over but we talk more about fun happy memories than painful ones.
I really hope my answer has offered some comfort. Keep talking about your lost loved one, speak to a favourite photo and trust that you will come through this. It won't be quickly or easily but you will be ok. Life just becomes different somehow. Xxx