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window magic do this kind of work, or if your on a budget just buy the upvc primer and paint after,ZINSSER make some very good primers

all depends on surface, wood , varnished, painted, plastic ? use a ultra primer first and then paint with what you prefer, dont use a primer and you will be stuck with cutting edge paints that are expensive, use standard paint and most likley will chip or peel depending again on surface, or add calcium carbonate to paint and make a chalk paint , works wonders, slight sanding required after painted and dried , finish is awesome. use synthetic brush for a nice finish but most will tell you to use pure bristles old school . remove the doors and you can also have the option of spraying them , faster better finish but again can be expensive .

I would like to thank everyone for your very kind comments and i will be updating my letter on here within the next cple of weeks, thank you everyone and you can find me on FB just search for wayne wilburn

no idea how to correctly do this, but i am looking for 2 friends both from Sheffield and i keep hitting a blank. hope you can help me. we met them on a cruise ship some years ago. male = steve not sure on post code area age around 44 3 years ago he was working on compressors or generators. he didn't have much hair and was slim build. female = sue think is lived in S4 and would be around 44 i think she got a job at the college.she is tall and dare i say it long dark hair , a little red/ginger little curly type i don't know there 2nd names so i guess this will be a long shot. all i can say is that a few years ago i let steve use my merc convertible to take him and some friends to france, if anyone of these remembers this then please get back to me asap. cheers wayne

everyone’s words have reduce me to a pile of mush, tears are a constant flow when i read your comments i simply wanted to pour out my heart and yet there are many others here with similar losses, i do not care about myself or what happens to me, but i simply feel so so hurt when my wife used to say to to me "please don’t let me die baby i love my life so much i want to be with you forever "i was helpless. There were over 30 people in our home when i finally had to go against my wife’s wishes and had someone to ask all our family to come over . you see when family phoned i would say she was fine, but this was a lie. I ate nothing for over a week and McMillan called the doctors out. true love destroys any appetite, i simply wanted to die with her and again i failed miserable. It has now been 2 weeks and she won’t be around to say she loves me or tries to give me a hug, she used to smile when i walked up to the bed with a trifle in my hands or a box of chocolate i simply looked away and cried, she could sense this and would always say "please don’t cry sweetheart"...one of my biggest losses was her hand on my shoulder, sleep for the last few years as been a nightmare and she would always do circle patterns on my shoulder to help me sleep, on other occasions i would sing to her my favourite song' don’t walk away by ELO although the lyrics were not exactly right. but her hand on my shoulder is what i miss and i will never experience that ever again. another bad time was when they fitted the medicine driver it hit home hard, i refused to look at anyone other then my wife, they said she would not feel pain, but i could see it in her eyes, she lost grip of my fingers they became relaxed ad weak i whispered to her and nothing but i could see tears in her eyes’ would rub her hands and again nothing it was then that i wanted her to sleep, the most unusually thing was my wife waited until i was alone with her and she tried to look at me and within seconds she died in my arms. no one else around. if i could say my love for her was deeper than the sea and higher than the sky then it would not be enough for me, she was my energy, my aura, my reason for living, my reason for crying and my reason for dying. I wish you all the very very best of health and hope you too have true love in your hearts family say i will love again 1 day, but not me, every person is different so i would never find another Jacky to love If anyone wishes to leave a message on my face book, which was set up for me by my daughter to keep in touch with reality, then you are more than welcome, my name is below. Wayne wilburn forgive me for all the upset i have caused and god bless you all x just one last thing, cancer does not just take your loved ones , it took our home out business, and our livelihood , it shows no remorse no forgiveness and if there is anything i have learned that i can share with others ( but not just yet, too unstable ) you only have to ask me, what time i have left i will devote to helping others

emotionaly i can't reply to all of your kind words , but thankyou to everyone on this forum kindest regards wayne

thankyou i will be fine, my daughter as been my strengh, along with the rest of my wonderfull family. i too after be strong for my kids,(adults) after all they lost there mum. i failed so bad for them.emotions are my weak point, and i was not there with a shoulder for them to cry on.in time i will have some making up to do. goodnight everyone for making my evening very emotional but yet very comfortable, but i have to go now, and i hope i have given someone this evening a little push to go the extra mile to take hold of your partner ,give them a cuddle and whisper to them you love them dearly and passionatly. sweet dreams to you all. wayne

it has been a total nightmare, it took all my family present to remove my arms from her when the funeral directors called. a doctor were called on the night for my concerns, i refused to let go of her and I was prescribed sleeping pills, they did nothing , i lost almost 8 pounds in a week, not because i didn't want to eat but I was unable, and even today i only get 3 hours sleep. McMillan nurses called each day after and so did the nhs nurses, they want to call again and see photos of us both together, i simply told them that all our photos are of us together. I have my story ready for them to read. But not in front of me. I guess I struck a cord with them all, but i didn’t want the help, I simply wanted my Jacky back. I feel so lonely, family support is very strong, but it's not the same. when i go to bed at night the horrors begin, I cuddle up to a L shaped pillow which was my Jacky’s, it helps a little.

please dont cry, i prey that she will be looking over you.my heart goes out to you too. my big brother was going to read my story out at the service,but i simply wrote it out for my own personal comfort. i told him he would not cope with the emotion,but i allowed him to read it out on the day, i was right, he or any family member could not read it out,even the man sized tissues did not work.. take care

thank you , it means so much to me, our family used to always say, put her down or let go off her, when she could walk it was always hand in hand, when she was in the wheelchair I would always stroke her hair, I guess I never listened.

I am pleasantly amazed that so many kind thoughts can be achieved from expressing ones feelings, i would have cared for her forever and ever, but it was not to be, when i used to push her wheelchair for miles along the ingoldmells coastline, she used to say " I’m tired now babe can we sleep" I couldn't express how physically drained i was and sleeping by her side is all i wanted to do, but the pain would stop me from hugging her.

sorry i didn't want to upset anyone, but thankyou so much for your thoughts.

i too feel for your loss, it was enivetable it was going to happen, but i just didn't imagine it would be on such a heartbreaking scale, everything i remember about her are the awfull last few weeks and i simply can't blank them out, most times i just want to go to sleep, i wish i could give my tears away...