ok im really fed up I just wanna sit here and cry but as I'm in a public cybercafe thats not really possible right now. I've just about given up on the idea that I'll ever find a good relationship as my first love died and my 2nd I'm sure loved me once but doesnt anymore i waited months for things to get better but it just got worse i saw and spoek to him less and less this wasnt my choice and id have given up everything for him. I already made some pretty big sacrifices and it felt like he never tried to be honest i dont know why he was with me cos he saw how much it was hurting me. other than that last yr i lost two close friends and went thru other dtuff i cant really go into here and I also got sacked before id started my job so maybe i should just crawl under a stone now and stay there cos i have limits to what i can take and ive alomst reached mine

Aww I'm sorry Mandy, I hope your ok.

I have lots of days like this, have a nice drink, listen to your favourite music and have a nice sleep!

*hugs*

xxx

Mandy get yourself to your doctors and tell them this.
You are seriously depressed and they can help you.
Dont be daft, get some backup :) :)

mandy, take heart all is not lost... i have been through some pretty difficult times recently too, very in fact and i have come out the other side much better for it.

http://www.memoriesoftomorrow.co.uk/blog/blogdetail.asp?BlogID=20

all is never lost...

do not look into the past for what you have lost... look to the future for what you have not yet found...

take care, you are not alone

Originally posted by artisan
Mandy get yourself to your doctors and tell them this.
You are seriously depressed and they can help you.
Dont be daft, get some backup :) :)

Id be really careful about this as if u were to go onto anti-depressants its only really a short term fix and once your on them its really really hard to get off again. Two of my best mates are on them and have tried to come off but you have to be weaned off from them slowly. The trouble came when they suddenly started feeling better and things were picking up so (they both did same thing despite me warning the 2nd one about what happen to the first) they just stopped taking them and then went really really downhill and worse than they were to start with - resulting in them being put back on the pills for another 6months before attempting to start the weaning process all over again. Please try to avoid it unless absolutely necessary but at the end of the day if you need it then you need it.

I really hope that things will pick up for you and honestly they will sooner or later. I have had some really crap things happen in my life also (a lot of which i'd rather not post on here) and it used to really get me down but now i dont let anything phase me cos i know that worrying or feeling down just doesnt help your situation - you have to be proactive and positive about life if you want to feel better and for things to improve. I know that sometimes bad things happen that we cant control and sometimes we get more bad luck than seems fair but if we dwell on it for too long then things will always look bad in our own minds and because ur down its harder to meet new people and get on with your life and you can get into a vicious circle. What i find works for me is not to look at what i havent got but the things i have got and the other thing is talking to friends who will listen as often jus getting something off you chest can really help you move on.

I hope that you can feel better about things soon and as for the bloke he obviously isnt worth your tears so please dont put your life on hold over him.

Hazel xxx

Hi Mandy

You sound low, which is super poo. However, if things are at rock bottom, at least the only way is up as they say!

I suggest running really fast. Even if not far - clears the head.

Any hoo, I send you good and cheerful vibes and smiles and fings.

Chicken Monkey x

Oh, and don't get scared off taking anti-depessants. Talk it through with your doc. Hazel's right about coming off them too quick though - it can make you wibbly.

listen luv, we all get dragged thru the mill at some or another
the trick is to bounce back. hang in there

look at the positives.

it sounds as though you could take some time for yourself if you wanted!!!!!!
so do some things that make you feel good like regular exercise to help you feel healthy and then i am sure will feel better.

treat yourself to some nice clothes or something when you feel down

I find it hard to believe that everything in your life is sooooooooo bad that there isnt even just one very teeny weeny little thing that is really fantastic.

Even when times were the absolute total pits, I always managed to find something funny in whatever was going on that I could laugh. For example the shyster who stitched up my credit rating to such an extent that my finances were in dire straits for years. Got on that trampoline of mine jumped for all it was worth for 45 minutes just imagining that this relevant git was the mat. Cant tell you how happy that made me. :D :D :D :D

hang in there, i think most of us at one time in our life have been really low, but we all deal with these things in different ways, hope you can find a way that helps you

Aw Mandy...

You know, if you're anything like me, you'll come back on here tomorrow or whenever and think 'wow! was that me feeling so sorry for myself?!' (Not that I think you're being self pitying - but I do it all the time!)

I recently wrote to my support group listserv for the disease I have and told about how crap I thought everything was, how I was never going to manage college etc. then I got all these lovely emails back and looked back and thought 'wow! was that me?'

Hang on in there - things will look different soon. I believe God will only let us take on things we can cope with. Without being too personal, I often think that I'm reaching my limit and that I'm not going to be able to take anymore, but your strength will shine through.

I can't comment on so many losses as I have never lost so many loved ones in such a short space of time, and I would hate to as well - I don't know how I'd cope in your situation, but then most people I say that to, say they wouldn't be able to cope in mine.

You just do, don't you.

Keep your chin up and feel free to email me if you wish:
lottie_lizzie_ann@yahoo.co.uk

http://the-lottie-story.mysite.wanadoo-members.co.uk

Hope your ok xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Keep Smiling :)

Sorry I never know what to say on these kinda things :(

thanks for messages. i do feel a ittle better now and feel a bit silly now looking back at my message. I know I'll be ok and that it will just take time. patience has never been my strong point

*hugs*
Don't feel silly about your original post, I did exactly the same the other day on another site and just ranted about life being generally crap! I don't know if its just the action of ranting and being heard or something else, but it really does help loads sometimes!
keep going and things will look better soon :)

Originally posted by mandy25
thanks for messages. i do feel a ittle better now and feel a bit silly now looking back at my message. I know I'll be ok and that it will just take time. patience has never been my strong point

Don't we all Mandy :hihi:

You know, if you're anything like me, you'll come back on here tomorrow or whenever and think 'wow! was that me feeling so sorry for myself?!' (Not that I think you're being self pitying - but I do it all the time!)

I recently wrote to my support group listserv for the disease I have and told about how crap I thought everything was, how I was never going to manage college etc. then I got all these lovely emails back and looked back and thought 'wow! was that me?'


I hope you're feeling better and rant when you need to - it gets it out your system!