I used to think I knew what love was...but then I got
dumpped and my whole view on the feeling changed.
Now i just feel hatefull when I see couples and people
in love walking about which depresses me because its
not their fault.

When I wake up in the morning I'm like "whats the point,
things aren't going to get better until I go to sleep
again". I've become really ungratfull for the
things I have, and just totally cynical about the whole
concept of love which i always hoped for.

No I seemed to just drift about the place with no particular
aim just wanting to find some satisfaction and peace before
I go completely mad.

I decided to get rid of my pointless possessions as they
just took up space and gathered dust and kept me chained to
one place. And I dustrust anything that ends with a plug.

Nothing seems to amaze me anymore. I try to submerge myself
in learning new things only to reach a point where my brain
can't learn anymore which frustrates me.

I fear having another relationship now because of all the
uncertainty. Plus, I don't think I could think of anything
to say when I tell that person 'I love you' only to have them
ask why. What are you ment to say? Call me shallow, but
surely people are first drawn to each other by physical
attraction, and then by personality. What I'm trying to say is
can you love someone for one specific unique thing about
them? I used to think so, but now I think I could 'love' someone
and commit myself totally to them just as simply as that.


(I didn't explain that very well. I'm writing this at work and I
can't think clearly at all.)

I think you're just not ready yet but someday you will meet someone again. I lost someone I loved over a year ago but I met someone else last xmas so it can happen even if it doesnt feell ike it at the moment

thestruggle I've seen your posts before hun. There are a lot of people on here who've been thru bad times.........PM me if you want a chat?????