I don't know where too start really.I suffer from ibs,diabetes,severe depression,psychosis,eating disorder,anixety,paranoia and self harm.I have been suffering for ten years and I feel Iam never going too get better.Most off my community mental health team don't know what too do with me other than prescribe more medication which doesn't help as I have a high toleration too them as I have been taking them for so long.I have tried cbt,counselling,art therapy,anixety management,relaxation techniques, seeing various psychiatrists,nurses,social workers etc...inpatient treatment,outpatient treatment and none have been very successful.I don't see much point too life the only thing which is stopping me from killing myself is my kids.Sorry for going on but I just needed too get it off my chest.

Nooooooooooooooo! Don't do it! Nothing is so bad it's worth topping yourself over.

I don't know where too start really.I suffer from ibs,diabetes,severe depression,psychosis,eating disorder,anixety,paranoia and self harm.I have been suffering for ten years and I feel Iam never going too get better.Most off my community mental health team don't know what too do with me other than prescribe more medication which doesn't help as I have a high toleration too them as I have been taking them for so long.I have tried cbt,counselling,art therapy,anixety management,relaxation techniques, seeing various psychiatrists,nurses,social workers etc...inpatient treatment,outpatient treatment and none have been very successful.I don't see much point too life the only thing which is stopping me from killing myself is my kids.Sorry for going on but I just needed too get it off my chest.

You don't need to apologise for going on - this group exists to help and support each other.

One of the things that helps (in my experience of depression, any way) is to let it all come spilling out. It's a bit like venting steam to stop a boiler exploding. So you did absolutely the right thing in posting on here.

My experience of depression is that it comes in waves, when you're at the top of a wave, it's not too bad, but when you're in a trough you just can't seem to see how you're ever going to get out it. Even though past experience tells you that you will rise again, it's hard to imagine it happening. But it will and it does.

To have fought your way through 10 years of these problems, you are obviously a strong person. You just don't feel like you are at the moment, because you're in a deep trough. That's why it helps to come on a forum like this, so other people can tell you that you can get through it and that you're not alone in what you're going through.

You have your children - that gives you something to live for, and I'm sure you will continue to be strong for them, if not for your own sake.

Keep posting on here if it helps, or remember the Samaritans have an online help facility, as well as the phone number. http://www.samaritans.co.uk/.

I'll be thinking of you.

do not even consider taking the final step.life is for living.

this may still sound weak. however if you can have a little think about you're situation.
then seperate each one, then try to focus on the one you think you can change or alter.

my wife has been a long term manic depressive - after 13 years she has finally succumbed to this suggestion and established the causes for some of her anxieties,depression and antagonistic reactions to some people. it won;t stop her being depressed - but it has relieved some pressure and has reassured her that things can get better.

Lithium worked wonders for me have you been prescribed it?

You don't need to apologise for going on - this group exists to help and support each other.

One of the things that helps (in my experience of depression, any way) is to let it all come spilling out. It's a bit like venting steam to stop a boiler exploding. So you did absolutely the right thing in posting on here.

My experience of depression is that it comes in waves, when you're at the top of a wave, it's not too bad, but when you're in a trough you just can't seem to see how you're ever going to get out it. Even though past experience tells you that you will rise again, it's hard to imagine it happening. But it will and it does.

To have fought your way through 10 years of these problems, you are obviously a strong person. You just don't feel like you are at the moment, because you're in a deep trough. That's why it helps to come on a forum like this, so other people can tell you that you can get through it and that you're not alone in what you're going through.

You have your children - that gives you something to live for, and I'm sure you will continue to be strong for them, if not for your own sake.

Keep posting on here if it helps, or remember the Samaritans have an online help facility, as well as the phone number. http://www.samaritans.co.uk/.

I'll be thinking of you.

My kids are the one's that have stopped me from overdosing or worse.I have tried the samaritans quite a few times, I think I will have too try and ring them again.

Clearly the medication isn't helping. After many years of depression I found it was the drugs I was on that was keeping me that way. I'm not suggesting you come off any drugs without medical supervision. I did and I wouldn't recommend it, but I think you need to talk to your GP about your medication.

I went too my gp yesterday and said too him that my medication isn't effective and has not been for a long time.He just topped up my olanzapine.I haven't been on Lithium but my doctor won't even consider chlopromozine which has least sedated me for short periods of time in the past.

Presumably you have seen a psychiatrist. Perhaps you need to seek a specialists opinion on your medication. Weaning you off the none effective little by little till you are off it. I can't see the point of taking something that isn't helping but it can be dangerous to stop it yourself without help.

Presumably you have seen a psychiatrist. Perhaps you need to seek a specialists opinion on your medication. Weaning you off the none effective little by little till you are off it. I can't see the point of taking something that isn't helping but it can be dangerous to stop it yourself without help.

I have been too see my psychiatrist,and Iam going too see her again shortly.I also don't see the point in taking non effective drugs,but as Iam on a high dose like you say I will have too wean off them slowly.

You'll find a lot of people on here who understand what you're going through.

First thing you need to do is identify what/who keeps you alive. You've said your kids do - whenever you feel really bad, think of your kids, how bad their life would be without you - you need to do anything you can to keep yourself safe when you're feeling very vulnerable. In the past when i've been bad i've stayed in bed - I think I knew if I got up I'd get the pills and OD so I just forced myself to not move until I felt able to cope better.

I've had trouble getting medication that suits me, I usually have side-effects. It's a long struggle to find something that's right for you. The best person to sort out your medication is the Psychiatrist so make sure you write down everything you want to say/ask before you see her to make sure it doesn't all just go out of your head.

You know you can come on here anytime and post. I want to do some posts about facts and positives of each disability. When i'm very low, that's when i'm at my most creative. I'm on medication so don't don't have any creativity in me at all at the moment but when I start to reduce it next month (looking at reducing it then changing to something with less side-effects hopefully) I know i'll be having some really creative times and that's when I draw. I know i'll be having some bad times too but i'll warn people in advance so they know what to expect.

Hope you're starting to feel a bit better by now, feel free to PM me anytime.

Thanks bonny that meant a lot.Iam still struggling really bad,but I know my kids lifes wouldn't be the same if I wasn't here so I am trying too keep strong for them.

It takes a lot to stay strong and focused when you're going through a really bad time. I think the human body is quite amazing in it's ability to survive. So, whenever I hear of anyone who has not survived I can't imagine how bad things must have been for them, and how sad it is that they next day things just may have seen an improvement.

I eat two brazil nuts every day (it had amazing effect on reducing pmt, so i'm sticking with it), laugh - even a false and forced laugh helps to make you feel better. Google jokes on the internet (ok you'll have to read through some that don't make you laugh but you're guaranteed to find some that do), watch funny movies/tv programmes, have a box of 'good things'. A box to remind you of what is good in your life. Next time you feel really good, pick something that will remind you of the way you feel - a pebble, a button - anything small that can fit in the box and bring out the box when you need a lift.

You know what changed it for me was a counsellor saying "You have had a hell of a time haven't you? " Sounds like with all the things going on healthwise no wonder you are depressed. I would be in the same situation. Don't feel guilty about it. The trouble is people expect you to just snap out of it after a while and it doesn't work like that. One method I have if something makes me angry or I've had a lousy day I write a letter to someone I know and then when I'm finished I rip it up. It seems to help.

I also have depression and know what it's like. I've no particular words of wisdom, other than to let you know you're not alone and the other people who've replied have given lots of great ideas.

There are many resources available on the internet I have found helpful. For example, different internet communities and forums where you can 'meet' other people who give support to each other and understand. I have also found it useful to read as much as I can find on the subject. It's good to understand all the different schools of thought on the subject.

I hope today has been a bit better than how you were feeling when you wrote the original post.

I don't know where too start really.I suffer from ibs,diabetes,severe depression,psychosis,eating disorder,anixety,paranoia and self harm. .

I actually just wrote loads, and deleted it all. :rolleyes:

EDIT: decided to send a PM instead. :)

*True, but not what society wants to hear.*

my question is to purdyamos.... So then..What kind of things do society need to hear> everything is fine and dandy? is that more fitting?

get better soon Funky....

my question is to purdyamos.... So then..What kind of things do society need to hear> everything is fine and dandy? is that more fitting?

get better soon Funky....

Thanks Netheredge.

Terribly sad to hear your series of conditions.

Your kids need you as you are aware.

Have you tried expanding your circle of friends ?

Does not look like much of a suggestion, but realy might help if you find those special people.

I find it really difficult too make friends and keep friendship as Iam quite shy.Also when Iam poorly I tend too push people away.I have meet some lovely people through a respite service I attend and as a there in similar postitions we can support one another and sometimes have a laugh.

Thats the sorta thing I was initially thinking.

Personall, I suffer with acute anxiety which has several triggers and recurring depression so I have a ball park idea if what troubles you.

You have my empathy, believe me.

Several people on here suffer also, you are certainly not alone, although it can feel like it sometimes.

How old are you and the kids ?

Do you have a close person/people for suport ?

Thats the sorta thing I was initially thinking.

Personall, I suffer with acute anxiety which has several triggers and recurring depression so I have a ball park idea if what troubles you.

You have my empathy, believe me.

Several people on here suffer also, you are certainly not alone, although it can feel like it sometimes.

How old are you and the kids ?

Do you have a close person/people for suport ?

Sorry too here that you have problems with anxiety and depression.Too me it's like living a nightmare when your unwell and difficult to explain too those around you if they haven't been their themselves.I think it's good people can chat online and share there experiences. Iam 24 my oldest child is nearly 4 my youngest is nearly 17 months.I have a partner I can talk too about certain things and two close friends which I see most weeks.How about yourself?

Yeah, with partner and stable with that, she is a rock for me.

Good circle of friends.

Just accepted the fact thjat I am always going to live with whatever restrictions my anxieties bestow upon me :(

Always willing to help others though, gone through a long dark tunnel and made it to the other side :|

Yeah, with partner and stable with that, she is a rock for me.

Good circle of friends.

Just accepted the fact thjat I am always going to live with whatever restrictions my anxieties bestow upon me :(

Always willing to help others though, gone through a long dark tunnel and made it to the other side :|

Iam the same with people, I always try too help them out when and if I can.
Good too hear you have a good support network,I think it's a vital too have good friends /family around you especially when you have problems.
If you ever want too chat feel free to pm me.:)

More chance of me inviting you for drinks in the pub.

I call it self-medicating, but yeah thanks :)

I may not be best person to chat to about these things but i understand about certain things you are going through such as depression and anxiety so feel free to chat to me if you want to.

Maybe try to find a hobby that isnt too challenging (if its something near impossible) you'll end up feeling worse if you can't complete it. Anything to take your mind off how you are feeling

my question is to purdyamos.... So then..What kind of things do society need to hear> everything is fine and dandy? is that more fitting?

get better soon Funky....

Only just seen this: if you look at my copious posts on the forum regarding mental health, you wouldn't have made that comment. I edited what I said because I was in a state myself so I took back what was probably inappropriate and coloured by my mood.

Please don't ever put words in my mouth again, especially on the subject of mental health.

hello there i was not sure which part to ask this question but think i have the right bit i have started with panic attacks and anxiety attacks in this last few month am sure its caused by stress that am getting at home. because was like it last year which came and went pretty quickly however this time its not going away rather than go to the doctors went to herbal shop have tried rescue remedy which did not do anything now on st johns wort which am not that sure it is doing anything i have friends that started on anti depressants that cant seem to get off them so did not want to go down that road ie doctor . i have always been a very strong person and always managed to deal with things thats the very scary part with these attacks i am not in control i just want to talk to someone who has been in a situation like this and what they did or anyone that could tell me anything that helps sorry if this message seems all mixed up found it hard to put in writing thanks

hello there i was not sure which part to ask this question but think i have the right bit i have started with panic attacks and anxiety attacks in this last few month am sure its caused by stress that am getting at home. because was like it last year which came and went pretty quickly however this time its not going away rather than go to the doctors went to herbal shop have tried rescue remedy which did not do anything now on st johns wort which am not that sure it is doing anything i have friends that started on anti depressants that cant seem to get off them so did not want to go down that road ie doctor . i have always been a very strong person and always managed to deal with things thats the very scary part with these attacks i am not in control i just want to talk to someone who has been in a situation like this and what they did or anyone that could tell me anything that helps sorry if this message seems all mixed up found it hard to put in writing thanks

You need to get to the doctors, you might need anti-depressants short-term to help you through a difficult patch. Just because you know people who can't get off anti-depressants, is no reason why you should be the same. You can take them for a short time, eg: 3-6 months, and then not need them again. Therapy can help as well, but there tends to be a waiting list, so the sooner you get to the doctor, the sooner you can get treatment.

I suffer from depression, my late partner suffered from depression, panic attacks and anxiety. We're both what I would term strong people, depression/anxiety doesn't just attack weak people. Strong people can feel it more, in a way, because they're so used to being in control and can't understand what the hell is happening.

thanks for your message i will go and visit the doctor and see what he decides to do with me i understand what you are saying about just cos my friends are addicted to them doesnot mean i will be but thanks for your advice am grateful for it .

thanks for your message i will go and visit the doctor and see what he decides to do with me i understand what you are saying about just cos my friends are addicted to them doesnot mean i will be but thanks for your advice am grateful for it .

Good. The first step in dealing with a problem is admitting to it, the second is seeing the doctor so you start working out what to do about it.

I find it hard to understand how your friends are addicted to anti-depressants - are you sure they aren't taking tranquillisers? They are a totally different kettle of fish and it's well known that they can cause problems. Anti-depressants basically just re-balance the chemicals in your brain. They don't work for everybody - and sometimes it takes a couple of tries to find the one that suits you best, but they really can help. This link (http://www.nhsdirect.nhs.uk/articles/article.aspx?articleId=28&sectionId=11) might be useful.

Is there such a thing as self confidence groups in sheffield where people go and try to help each other to understand what is making them feel this way and how to cope with the way they feel,
Without having to take diferent pills to see wich one makes you feel
happy,

Is there such a thing as self confidence groups in sheffield where people go and try to help each other to understand what is making them feel this way and how to cope with the way they feel,
Without having to take diferent pills to see wich one makes you feel
happy,

You could try Sheffield Mind (http://www.sheffieldmind.co.uk/services_gro.htm). But anti-depressants don't make you happy - they just re-balance your brain chemicals so you're back to "normal".

Good luck.

I don't know where too start really.I suffer from ibs,diabetes,severe depression,psychosis,eating disorder,anixety,paranoia and self harm.I have been suffering for ten years and I feel Iam never going too get better.Most off my community mental health team don't know what too do with me other than prescribe more medication which doesn't help as I have a high toleration too them as I have been taking them for so long.I have tried cbt,counselling,art therapy,anixety management,relaxation techniques, seeing various psychiatrists,nurses,social workers etc...inpatient treatment,outpatient treatment and none have been very successful.I don't see much point too life the only thing which is stopping me from killing myself is my kids.Sorry for going on but I just needed too get it off my chest.

Take it day by day babe an sometimes a wal in the countryside helps. Try lavendar oil treat yourelf like a newborn baby. Lots of tender loving care. Hope your feeling better soon.

Is there such a thing as self confidence groups in sheffield where people go and try to help each other to understand what is making them feel this way and how to cope with the way they feel,
Without having to take diferent pills to see wich one makes you feel
happy,

if you find out let me know please

Take it day by day babe an sometimes a wal in the countryside helps. Try lavendar oil treat yourelf like a newborn baby. Lots of tender loving care. Hope your feeling better soon.

Since I last posted on here I have started exercising more,which I find helps sometimes.Also I am forcing myself to go out and face my anxieties and paranoia more when I can.Plus I have started taking quartarpine which is being upped everday at the moment.I hope everyone who is struggling can find the support and love needed especially during difficult periods.

Since I last posted on here I have started exercising more,which I find helps sometimes.Also I am forcing myself to go out and face my anxieties and paranoia more when I can.Plus I have started taking quartarpine which is being upped everday at the moment.I hope everyone who is struggling can find the support and love needed especially during difficult periods.

Well done you. So what's quartarpine?? It's one I've never come across before? I know I can google it, but the results can be random to say the least; best to hear from those who've taken it...

Well done you. So what's quartarpine?? It's one I've never come across before? I know I can google it, but the results can be random to say the least; best to hear from those who've taken it...

Quartarpine is a anti psychotic which is supposed too reduced hallucinations, paranoia,and delusions.I have only been taking them two weeks, Haven't had any side effects so far I hope they start working effectively shortly.

Quartarpine is a anti psychotic which is supposed too reduced hallucinations, paranoia,and delusions.I have only been taking them two weeks, Haven't had any side effects so far I hope they start working effectively shortly.

Hang in there, anti-d's can take 3 to 4 weeks to fully start to "kick-in", you will have to bear with it, but hopefully not for much longer.

I know I have too be patient as it takes time too kick in with all meds.

Quartarpine is a anti psychotic which is supposed too reduced hallucinations, paranoia,and delusions.I have only been taking them two weeks, Haven't had any side effects so far I hope they start working effectively shortly.
Ah, thanks for the info. Glad you haven't had any side effects and best of luck with the med; it's hard having to wait, but the long term benefits will make it all worthwhile.

Ah, thanks for the info. Glad you haven't had any side effects and best of luck with the med; it's hard having to wait, but the long term benefits will make it all worthwhile.

Thanks. Its just frustrating waiting for meds too kick in as a lot off you know.

Thanks. Its just frustrating waiting for meds too kick in as a lot off you know.
'Tis. Still waiting for my prozac to start working properly. I asked my doc what to do until they kick in, and his advice was to "avoid anxious situations", hm, I didn't know whether to laugh or cry! Stay with it, keep posting, and I'll pop back when I can and if you want to talk just go for it.

I don't know where too start really.I suffer from ibs,diabetes,severe depression,psychosis,eating disorder,anixety,paranoia and self harm.I have been suffering for ten years and I feel Iam never going too get better.Most off my community mental health team don't know what too do with me other than prescribe more medication which doesn't help as I have a high toleration too them as I have been taking them for so long.I have tried cbt,counselling,art therapy,anixety management,relaxation techniques, seeing various psychiatrists,nurses,social workers etc...inpatient treatment,outpatient treatment and none have been very successful.I don't see much point too life the only thing which is stopping me from killing myself is my kids.Sorry for going on but I just needed too get it off my chest.

Hi i have been there too, and belive me it does get better.;)

Depression is a very mis-understood ilness. I have been doing reasearch on Depression for an article and have spoken to lots of people..so you are not alone.

It's good that you can share your thoughts and get things off your chest.

My article is available now on Community Friend (http://www.communityfriend.co.uk), part 2 is published on Monday the 28th of Jan 2008