I am split from the father of my four year old son. We share care almost equally so I have half the week without him. Even two years down the line , I find this really tough.
Anyone out there - share how you do ( or did it )

Yep i'm another Shazza, my son's only 20 months old and it kills me every time he leaves me, i rattle round the house on my own and clock watch until he gets back.

Fortunately my ex has agreed that our son needs a permanent base and now my ex has a job my son will be with me more, visiting his father every other weekend and a night during the week, although it still all needs sorting.

I don't think it ever gets easier i'm afraid, my dad used to find it hard saying bye to my sisters when they came to visit and they were 10 and 12 at the time so more independant.

Cant you do something to help take your mind off of missing him so badly? Like going out for a drink with friends or pampering yourself? Its horrible when they`re away isnt it, but could you try to make the most of it and spoil yourself?

Thanks for your responses.

I know that it is always going to hurt. Equally . I REALLY DO appreciate the fact that I can do my own thing too. And do. I guess it just ain't what I had ever planned.