i dont know where to start my words r trapped inside i need to scream im living a nightmare

whats the worse thing that any mum can go through

According to most women I've spoken to,...it's childbirth!

Originally posted by Ange
i dont know where to start my words r trapped inside i need to scream im living a nightmare

whats the worse thing that any mum can go through

Life?

Originally posted by Ange
whats the worse thing that any mum can go through

Losing a child.

Nomme

I second Nomme's.

Ange - whats wrong?

Moon

whats happened?

its so hard to put into words i had my first child a girl in 83 shes brill and has a child of her own now
i had then 3 early miscarriages at 11wk, 7wk, 6wks, then went 1yr trying to get caught again when i did
i went 5mths and had a girl but she didnt live
my next child a girl was severely disabled and needed 24 care she was my life
i still ached for a child and decided to have another in 92 i had another girl who ive fought for to get her the help she needed she was very different i then went on to have another only this time a boy but i was givin birth to him both my other girls were in hospital and so was my dad
a few hrs after id had my son my dad died this was in oct 94
it was hard coping with 3 children whos needs had to be met and a new baby that my dad never got to see
in dec 98 my nan died bless her she was great
then in feb 99 my i found my child dead in bed i tried to resuscitate her but unfortunately this didnt work
we had booked to go to palma in may 2000 instead we were moving into our new home on the date we were sopose to be going on our long awaited holiday then in the following dec my hubsband left (my choice not his)
devorced in the following march
i had a relationship but he turned out to b just as bad as my fisrt hub so ended that
i then met who i thought was the best thing since sliced bread (NOT) and because of his behavour we werent safe the socail services steped in and marched my now 10yr old child away they said she could cum back when id got him out they told me they would help(they didnt)
he was an monster mr evil guy. my little girl who had her 12th birthday last thursday is now in a residential sch for autistic children i get to see her once a wk i found out after that she had been abused this is the most painfull thing im every aving to live with after losing my other child nearly five yrs ago
i had a family once i want my life back and my child where she belongs
at home with a mum and brother who love her more than anything in the world
what am i sopose to do

Originally posted by Ange
its so hard to put into words i had my first child a girl in 83 shes brill and has a child of her own now
i had then 3 early miscarriages at 11wk, 7wk, 6wks, then went 1yr trying to get caught again when i did
i went 5mths and had a girl but she didnt live
my next child a girl was severely disabled and needed 24 care she was my life
i still ached for a child and decided to have another in 92 i had another girl who ive fought for to get her the help she needed she was very different i then went on to have another only this time a boy but i was givin birth to him both my other girls were in hospital and so was my dad
a few hrs after id had my son my dad died this was in oct 94
it was hard coping with 3 children whos needs had to be met and a new baby that my dad never got to see
in dec 98 my nan died bless her she was great
then in feb 99 my i found my child dead in bed i tried to resuscitate her but unfortunately this didnt work
we had booked to go to palma in may 2000 instead we were moving into our new home on the date we were sopose to be going on our long awaited holiday then in the following dec my hubsband left (my choice not his)
devorced in the following march
i had a relationship but he turned out to b just as bad as my fisrt hub so ended that
i then met who i thought was the best thing since sliced bread (NOT) and because of his behavour we werent safe the socail services steped in and marched my now 10yr old child away they said she could cum back when id got him out they told me they would help(they didnt)
he was an monster mr evil guy. my little girl who had her 12th birthday last thursday is now in a residential sch for autistic children i get to see her once a wk i found out after that she had been abused this is the most painfull thing im every aving to live with after losing my other child nearly five yrs ago
i had a family once i want my life back and my child where she belongs
at home with a mum and brother who love her more than anything in the world
what am i sopose to do

This sounds like life! If there is something you can do about it, do it. If not, don't worry. **** happens! :)

Sorry Ange!!

My posting above seems somehow worthless now. I apologise.

My heart goes out to you. :(

That's just awful. You deserve a break in life, you really do.

That is one helluva hard line to follow hun and with your waiting on the council drawing trials and tribulations out it has to make it harder,

My advice is to hit newspapers, solicitors. There are support groups and such out therre for austistic children and their families they may be able to help you demand the support you need.

Moon Maiden